I feel a certain way where I’m unsure what will bring relief. I’m fixed into it- can’t give words to it, or distract myself from it. Part of my mind is in a panic as if drowning, but I can’t scream or reach out. Frightening. I don’t know what to do anymore. The unhappiness is intolerable and I’m losing this fight. I mean so little. That insignificance for a long time has been enough to make the decision for me. Hard to ignore.