This is a painting I did the first weekend after working at my new job. I didn’t think I’d have the energy to begin anything and see it through, but I’m glad I gave the time. As frustrating as painting without a plan can be for me, this time it was a relief not knowing what to expect. That’s rare. It’s now an image to go with a song I’d finished recording only days before my first day as a new employee. I wrote these lyrics as I considered my reaction if I had been offered a position (not knowing I would be soon after)- if I would say no and feel scared or great regret for even bothering again, or if I’d say yes and feel my own strength and that I’m finally on my own side in this.
Without time for my piano these days, I’m writing a lot more. It’s keeping my head above water for now. We always do have to settle.
You Have Me
Take the risk.
I’ve heard the fear in these moments.
But I am beyond your death.
I rose from the fall.
I know where you have been.
Led to the beginning of end.
Trust no one else; you’re losing time.
Patience and dear faith will not save your life,
And if love is here it has chosen not to try.
Everlasting truth we find –
I carry the sky
And you will always have my wings to fly.
You will always have me.