I still have some poems I have ready to be posted that I finished before my job training classes started. The one I have below is about the lie I’ve kept up finally failing and about being exposed and realizing that once it happens, there’s only a matter of time before you lose yourself completely. When even the good memories of the past can’t convince you to stay and endure the emptiness.
I’d rather you be happy
With joy upon your face
Leave me in misery
Kept safe and in my place
I am as touched as you’ve been blind
As cold as your fear of being frozen
The unseen sorrow sings these thoughts
I am jaded and well understand
When this mask of perfection goes un-kept
And secrets shyly show themselves, you will
Know soullessness, the scene will be unkind
In striking fail comparison of the fallen lie
Reasons cede and loosen the grasp of memories
As deaths of past run cold through me,
I know you will get over.
More than sure, you will move on.